Mundanity is comfort.
Comfort is staying at home and lay on the couch watching Suits reruns.
Anxiety is seeing a man’s face when there is no man.
Feeling apprehensive is fearing a bus might hit me before I step into college for orientation.
Low self worth is feeling sad that a bus didn’t hit me and afraid I won’t make any friends in college.
Unfamiliarity is fearing I might miss my bus stop and end up in Rawang.
Limbo is where I don’t belong to anywhere and anywhere doesn’t belong to me.
Control was what I had for 3 minutes.
Exhaustion is contentment.
Contentment was what I felt for three days.
Discipline is something I didn’t know I have it in me.
Longing is doing math and realizing I don’t understand shit and long for my sister to be next to me.
Nostalgia is high school.
High school is sadness.
Sadness is having a set of wonderful friends who you don’t speak to anymore on a daily basis.
Dutch courage is something I don’t have.
Infatuation is glee.
Glee is smiling like a fucker.
Smiling like a fucker is comfort.
Comfort was what I needed.
Not needing something is power.
Power is strength.
Strength is saying no to a cigarette when someone blows Ice Blast smoke in your face.
Conflict was the dilemma of being a good friend or someone who loves myself.
Secrets are things I wished I didn’t have.
Closure was what I desperately sought after and thought I have.
Frusturation is not being able to solve my own rhetorical questions regarding morality.
Amusement is being frustrated I can’t answer m own questions.
Spontaneity is fun.
Fun is free.
Free is life.
Life is joining a treasure hunt when you didn’t plan to and running around Subang and doing stupid shit.
Growing up is something I have done in the 2013 of January
Adventurousness is tomorrow.
Anticipation is February.